A note to myself about how I'd like to look.

I like this hair cut, until my hair gets longer, then I want this. Really long a pretty with a balayage highlight around my face.

 And I want to rock awesome dresses with Chucks. Cause I love dressed but despise heels. I want to be able to dress like a girl but still climb a mountain.

And In case no one understand my want of long hippie hair, and flowers, and chucks and dresses, remember this:

Iv'e been away! How are you?

Hi!!!!
          I redid the blog, how do you like it? Can you read everything? Or should I change the fonts, color of fonts? ETC. I must say that it is a beautiful day in California. Which leads to my news. I decided, after much carelessness and irrational thinking, That I want to run the L.A Marathon next March. It is a 26 mile jog, from the dodgers stadium to the coast. You have 8 hours to complete the run and if you do you get a metal! I want that metal. :) I am so excited!
         A moment to share: Yesterday I was driving and look over and there way a little cute fluffy dog, no bigger then a full sized cat, with his head out the window. His tongue was flopping in the wind, it made my day. And I was extremely happy.
The end. :)

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I am lazy and going to bed, It'll be pretty soon.

If I were green.

Thought this was a fun app. Do you want me to make you one?

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             I don't like that the only thing stopping me from my future is a job. A job should be the least of my worries. A computer is what is in between me and a job. Why can I not apply on paper and simply say," I am hard working, honest, Love customer loyalty, and want to be part of your organization. Who really needs qualification for a stocking position? Or what about the fact that I can cook, I've been told so by my loved ones and friends. But because I do not have a 30,000 dollar piece of paper saying I can, I do not qualify.

             Then when one gets an interview which I have not in a while. A person sits behind a desk and instantly judges you. They intimidate one so they can weed out the idiots. What if I can do the job, but they were so intimidating that I studder? 

            It depresses me that I have not had a real job in a year and a half. The physical emotion hurts. Am I that useless? Because it is not from lack of effort. Where do I belong? Someone take me and let me be part of your corporate family.

The long troublesome worries of complexion.

              I am getting ready to go natural, to go naked! Organic skin care,silly, get your mind out of the gutter!
Recently my skin has been going crazy with ugly blemishes. I recently was recommended to use Olay. It uses AHA, which has not worked for me in the past. The girl swore by it so I said what the hell. I should have said hell no! I have now proven my theory, my skin does not like AHA or any other harsh products for that reason. My Mother has sensitive skin and so do I, makes sense right? SO I am changing my regimin. I do not like to where face make up because at the end of the night its gotta come off. I want to feel pretty in my own skin not a waxy cover up.
             I did some research on other options like benzyl peroxide which does work wonders on my skin but! It can cause cancer. And lets say the study is malarkey, who wants to play with cancer? So many chemicals go into what we eat and wash with and I am saying No More.
            After researching what causes a zit, whiteheads, black ones, and Cystic ( yes gross I know!) I then searched organic, natural alternatives. In my search I discovered Tea Tree oil, it mimics what Benzyl peroxide does. It disinfects working deep in the poor. Jojobo oil, which is molecularly similar to a humans natural sebum, was another discovery. And finally, cytic zits, often treated with harsh medicines like acutain, Retin A, and other perscriptions, are caused from internal toxins, amoung other things. So I am going internal with Apple cider vinigar. Its going to be so gross but if I get all the benefits I don't care. If you would like to know more on ACV,click here & Here.
       So today I went to my local health store. BJ's health food store if your a desert rat like I and bought. This:

The little spray bottle on the right. ( JoJobo oil)

Which says 

Jojoba Oil comes from the seed of a desert bush yet it’s molecular structure is very similar to human skin oil… or sebum. It penetrates the skin down the hair follicle and also through the pores, coats the cell membranes and inhibits moisture loss. It has Vitamin E as a natural component to slow down the aging process. Jojoba Oil dissolves the wax form of sebum so it opens the skin allowing toxins out and oxygen in as well as allowing the natural oils to the surface of the skin. Jojoba Oil comes in two grades: Golden, which is yellow in color and Filtered (or Refined), which is virtually water, white in color.
Golden Jojoba Oil is heavier and penetrates more slowly. This is a good quality for symptomatic relief of skin problems like psoriasis, seborrhea, cradle cap, acne, rosatia, eczema and very dry skin.

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This face wash. according to the bottle has

No

Animal Derived Ingredients
Animal Testing
Parabens
Artificial Fragrances or Dyes
Petroleum Compounds: Mineral Oil, Petrolatum or Paraffin
SLS
PEGS, PPG, MEA, DEA or TEA
Glycols
Phthalates

                  Yes

Vegetarian/Vegan
Recyclable
Gluten Free
Biodegradable
Renewable Sources
Cruelty Free

It is also jam packed with oils of chamomile, golden seal, blue cypress, Hawaiian white ginger and a ton of other goodies!I will wash with the Desert Essence tea tree oil face wash and mosterize with JoJobo Oil. I will let you know how it goes. I will take before and after pictures and see if there is any difference.

Wish me luck!

Oh what a wonderful thing.

Some plans are cooking away. I'm praying that God will bless me with this wonderful opportunity. I can't do it with out him! I do not want to get my hopes up and have them shut down but this feels right. Hard challenges are ahead but I can do it. Just bless me with this opportunity!!!!!!!!!!! I will let you know the surprise later, After I get it!